Dear Tumblr,

Sometimes I feel so lonely, but then I remember the good things that I have in my life. It’s so difficult being back in my hometown where no one is here and it feels so empty. I do have great memories here and it is nice seeing old friends. Although there is the lingering loneliness that really becomes alive once I am back in this place that used to be my home. It would feel so nice to express all of my feelings with someone, but it’s so hard to find the words for how I feel. It’s not necessarily depression, but it’s an empty feeling just as if there is so much missing. Maybe it is always there and it just comes back once I am in this place. Or maybe it only really comes when I am here. The holidays have all of this excitement around it. Everyone is to pretend they are happy and that things are wonderful. Families are back together and everyone is celebrating life. It doesn’t feel that way for me though. It doesn’t feel like my life in this town anymore rather it feels like this empty space. 

Day one:

I am grateful that I am breathing and have a sense of calmness.

I am grateful of rainy weather for weeks because then I appreciate the blue sunny skies.

I am grateful for choosing my journey of self happiness and figuring out who I am.

so many feelings.

studyblr:

I hope you will find a job that fulfills you, friends that understand you, and love that completes you.

(via drownmytidalwave)